I was feeling a bit lost today; I've done a fair bit of pondering over the reasons why I'm doing this. So I'm going to enjoy a cup of tea (no sugar, changed woman), and soliloquise about my changed lifestyle!
A few reasons behind my mission:
1. Noah! Doesn't he deserve a mam who can keep up with him and play with him all day long? At the minute I struggle- I need to get fit! I'd also like to live long enough to see Noah grow into an old man with his own grandchildren, thank you very much!
2. Mr Big Lass! He loves me how I am, and I believe that he will always love me no matter what exterior I come in. But I want him to have a sexy ass wife, if I'm honest! I fancy being one of those overtly glamorous 40-somethings, who people see as being a trophy-wife. I have an ambitious way of using my intellect, and I'm not ashamed of it.
3. "Those" jeans! I already own them. I have been much slimmer before, and I loved the two months of my life when I fit into size 14 skinny jeans. I will one day shake what my Nanna gave me (I've got a Wilson arse, so I'm never going to be skinny) in those jeans. I also want to fit into jeans that don't resemble a king sized duvet! *
4. My family... I'm not at my best when I'm bigger! Hormones get the better of me, and I'm prone to suffer from depression and anxiety, and I can be a complete and utter moron! Sometimes I'm not a nice person to be near, and it's always my nearest and dearest who feel my wrath. I know that when there's less of me, I am happier and less like a storm waiting to hit them. I can't control my depression on my own when my hormones are so all over the place, and I don't want to live my life on anti-depressants. My lovely family have to tip-toe around me at times, in fear of pissing me off, and I really don't like that.
5. It's all about me! I'm going to be selfish, I WANT to do this so I can be fitter, healthier and happier for myself! Ultimately, I'm not doing this for anyone other than myself (although I kind of am, but that's ok)!
*Clearly "those" jeans are the least important reason, but I wanted to break up the serious stuff with a bit of shallowness!
Wow! I feel more confident with my challenge now I have in writing why I want to do it. I look forward to being a healthier, happier and fitter version of myself- cos I am pretty awesome in parts already!
Ali xxx
A few reasons behind my mission:
1. Noah! Doesn't he deserve a mam who can keep up with him and play with him all day long? At the minute I struggle- I need to get fit! I'd also like to live long enough to see Noah grow into an old man with his own grandchildren, thank you very much!
2. Mr Big Lass! He loves me how I am, and I believe that he will always love me no matter what exterior I come in. But I want him to have a sexy ass wife, if I'm honest! I fancy being one of those overtly glamorous 40-somethings, who people see as being a trophy-wife. I have an ambitious way of using my intellect, and I'm not ashamed of it.
3. "Those" jeans! I already own them. I have been much slimmer before, and I loved the two months of my life when I fit into size 14 skinny jeans. I will one day shake what my Nanna gave me (I've got a Wilson arse, so I'm never going to be skinny) in those jeans. I also want to fit into jeans that don't resemble a king sized duvet! *
4. My family... I'm not at my best when I'm bigger! Hormones get the better of me, and I'm prone to suffer from depression and anxiety, and I can be a complete and utter moron! Sometimes I'm not a nice person to be near, and it's always my nearest and dearest who feel my wrath. I know that when there's less of me, I am happier and less like a storm waiting to hit them. I can't control my depression on my own when my hormones are so all over the place, and I don't want to live my life on anti-depressants. My lovely family have to tip-toe around me at times, in fear of pissing me off, and I really don't like that.
5. It's all about me! I'm going to be selfish, I WANT to do this so I can be fitter, healthier and happier for myself! Ultimately, I'm not doing this for anyone other than myself (although I kind of am, but that's ok)!
*Clearly "those" jeans are the least important reason, but I wanted to break up the serious stuff with a bit of shallowness!
Wow! I feel more confident with my challenge now I have in writing why I want to do it. I look forward to being a healthier, happier and fitter version of myself- cos I am pretty awesome in parts already!
Ali xxx
Location:Workington,United Kingdom
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